They say the greatest fear most of us have is the fear of speaking in public. I believe it’s probably true. Most people I know hate to speak in front of people. I have a friend at church that is the church board secretary, she has been for many years. She gets up and speaks quite often, but she tells me that it is still her greatest fear.
I can’t say that I am fearful of speaking but it does make me quite nervous.
I’m afraid I might say something wrong, stick my foot in my mouth, or hurt someone’s feelings. There was a time that I seemed to put my foot in my mouth. I would be trying to hand out a compliment but it came out like an insult. It still happens occasionally. 🙁
Over the years, I have learned to speak comfortably at church but I never thought it was my calling. I loved the children’s department and I was content to stay there. But God slowly moved me from the preschool department to early elementary to pre teens until now I find myself speaking to women. I guess I grew into it.
The thing is that yes, we all have that fear until we realize that it really isn’t all that bad. Moses did. He told God, “I can’t talk so good. Send someone else.” (Exodus 6) God did give him some to speak for him but if you go back and read Exodus you find that Moses did most of the talking!
Now God is pushing me to speak to more than my familiar church ladies. He wants me to go speak to strange women, women who might not agree with my views. It’s a scary thing. I want to say to God, “I don’t know what to say. And now because of my illness, my mind goes blank and I forget words I’ve known forever.” But God says, not to worry about that. He will give me the words when the time is right. (Luke 12:12)
I guess that’s why he chooses people who feel undeserving or incapable of doing His work. Because then, we have to rely on Him to do it through us. If we already had the talent, I’m afraid we would try to take credit on our own.
I try to keep this prayer before me whenever I speak…
May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart
be pleasing in your sight, LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.
Speaking for Him,
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