5 So I said:
“Woe is me, for I am undone!
Because I am a man of unclean lips,
And I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips;
For my eyes have seen the King,
The Lord of hosts.” Isaiah 6:5
One thing that my illness have given me is plenty of time to spend reading God’s Word, meditating on it, and studying it. The more I read and study, the more I realize that I have been missing out on a wonderful personal relationship with our Lord. Oh, how I regret the years that I have lived halfheartedly for Him, thinking that I was giving Him my all.
I am now reading the Bible through for the third time, in a different translation each time. I am amazed how His word is new every morning. I see new things every time even with scriptures that I have known my whole life. Scriptures take on whole new meanings from different stages of life. It is always alive and fresh. The time I spend the more I want to spend time with Him.
My husband purchased me a Kindle when I became disabled. I really didn’t think I wanted one. I didn’t have a desire to read a book from a computer. And I really wanted to read and mark my actual Bible. But as it turns out, I have already this year read over double what I read last year.
I mention the Kindle because Michael has previously purchased several books for his studies, including many theology and books of sermons by our church forefathers. I remember thinking at the time, “Why would I want to read a theology book?” Turns out, I do want to read them.
When my Bible reading recently came into the prophets, specifically the book of Isaiah. I recalled that there was a book on my Kindle Sermons On Isaiah, by Dr Phineas F. Bresee. So, I decided maybe I would read and see what he had to say about the book of Isaiah. And my heart was pricked anew almost immediately.
One thing, that has really been brought to the forefront for me is that Isaiah had already been a prophet for years. He was already in the ministry of God. This was not his initial calling. And yet, Isaiah found that he was worth nothing as he stood before the God of all gods. He realized that he was still so unclean before a righteous God and unworthy to be in his presence.
This is much how I have felt lately. As if my “works” were as filthy rags. And that I needed a touch from Him to make me clean and worthy to share the gospel to those around me. I had been doing much in my own strength and that I needed a fresh anointing from Him. Oh, how I long to know Him more.
He also saw that he was living in an evil place. I think we can all agree that we live in an evil world that pays little attention to the things of God. God doesn’t take us out of this world, because he has given us all free will, it is our choice to live for Him or not. That’s why there is evil all around. This is why we need to be all the more close to the heart of Jesus. And the only way to do that is to spend time reading and listening for His voice.
Besides just being determined to stay the course and keep God as the top priority in my life. I want to tell others to do the same. No more excuses of not having time. I noticed also as I read the Pentateuch (Books of history) that there was a lot of sacrificing and worshiping expected from God. I wondered at times how they got anything else done. But maybe that’s the point.
We were created to worship Him, so shouldn’t it be the thing that takes up most of our time? And are all the things that we think are important, really that important? Let’s find time, make time to get to know Him in an intimidate way. We can let him take care of all the other “needs”.
These are just a few thoughts I’ve been preaching to myself.
If you agree with me, you might be interested in attending Come to the Fire this Fall in October. I won’t be able to attend personally, but I plan to watch online. Maybe you will join me at a simulcast or online.
Next week will begin a 5 week time of prayer and fasting led by Aletha Hinthorn. Maybe you will join me as a Fire Seeker too.
Click here Come to the Fire for more information about the conference.
Read more from Isaiah at https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Isaiah+6&version=NKJV#HV5HwMhGucuYxZau.99